week 12 not so happy thanksgiving

Over thanksgiving break I lost one of the most important people in my life, my grandfather. We never expected him to go down hilll so quick, he was doing fine on monday but on tuesday is when he got really bad. Wensday came around and I was with my boyfriend at his brothers house, my phone rang around 4 o'clock it was my mom she was crying, I didn't know what was going on, I asked what was wrong she told me she loved me and not to cry but my grandfather had died. When those very word came out of her mouth it felt as if someone had ripped out my heart i couldn't feel anything else, I just sat there in the front room and brokedown. My boyfriend tried his hardest to get me to stop crying and calm down but it didn't work, I finally told him that i wanted to go see my family so we got in my car and went over to my grandparents. As i walked in to the house i felt nothing but sadness and looked at the faces of my family members reality set in i realized that this was actually happening. Some on who I considered a best friend was gone from me i didn't want to believe it that the one person i could talk to about everything with was dead gone from me for what seems like forever. After the man came to take my grandfather away i offically brokedown I could barely breath it felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest I had to leave.
The next day it was thanksgiving everyone was trying to be happy but I knew deep down they were hurting just as much as I was. Throughout the day I just wanted to see my grandpa I didnt want anything else, he was my best friend in the entire world.